So I go out in public and do this because I am a crazy motherfucker
Shut UP, professor-talks-a-lot.
college is a funny thing. i think we have this idea that it’s going to be an incredible place where nothing goes wrong, and you make all these fantastic friends, and la la la. life is good.
emory has taught me a few things:
1. some of the best people go here.
2. some of the worst people go here.
not that anyone is evil, per se. but that there’s a lot of people that don’t understand, or care, about how people feel. it’s a funny thing, friendship. it seems like we all have an innate desire to be loved, and needed. that should go without saying. it’s human nature. but i don’t understand how some people can overlook good times because of one small mistake.
then there’s the ever-present issue of relationships. those are fascinating, too. it’s hard to feel something so insanely powerful, but not be able to do anything about it. if you’ve read bel canto, then you know of this quote:
“The kind of love that offers its life so easily, so stupidly, is always the love that is not returned.”
opening yourself up to people is one of the scariest things you can do in your life. there’s people than can just totally express themselves, and i envy that. i can’t. but there’s nothing more awful than wanting something you can’t have. and when you decide to let it go, where does that leave you? with nothing. does it make you stronger? most likely not.
when you decide to let it go, it’s like you lose a part of yourself. i think in time you get it back, because there’s always something better out there. maybe. life is full of let downs, it’s true. and people can either really surprise you, or totally make you question the future of humanity.
but at the end of the day, what matters? that you have your health? your family? i think it’s pretty much just that you have life, and you have to make the most with what you have. that’s what college has taught me so far. people will disappoint you, but they might also surprise you. and you have to be able to love, and to feel, because without it, the world looks a little less bright.
it’s something about believing. i don’t know. that’s very lifetime movie/hallmark card, but i’m just in one of those moods. i wish people would go for what they want. full on go for it. life would be easier that way. but then again, i’ve always liked surprises.
- I got hired as an assistant director on an independent film being shot in Atlanta.
- I got invited to the Big Sky Documentary Film Festival, and I have the opportunity to submit a film.
See u at the Oscars, betchezzz.
Mine is New York City. People who truly know me know that it’s been a goal of mine for a LONG time to be on SNL. The chances of that happening are pretty small, but I would never forgive myself if I didn’t give it everything I have.
It always bothered me when people told me to find a realistic dream. The point of dreaming isn’t to be realistic, and the best part about life is being able to dream big dreams. And if you want something, even if it’s something so hard to attain, just remember…somebody has to do it, so why not you?
This is my dream. What’s yours?
If I can make it there, I can make it anywhere
It’s up to you, New York, New York.
